her surgery. and after

mommi had her operation yesterday. Laser.
sound normal right?
I feel so at 1st. but it's not.
it's scary, for me maybe.
mommi is brave enough to go through it. :')

I was thought I feel nothing and just a normal small surgery for mommi.
but I'm wrong. I will be scare.
when she change off  her cloths, I still fell nothing.
I still can go lunch with my friend.
i duno why that time I really feel nothing...
maybe there's a time set in my mind, 3pm only will go for the operation.

mommi was 3rd one,
1st person is an uncle, he went in and nothing change to he while he came out.
while, the damn operation still haven start and i just sitting there for nothing and time fly.
until,
the another aunty who are the 2nd patient for the operation,
she came out, and I found that she had done hers!!!
Gosh! then now is momma turn???

my fear almost cover me.
I just stay there and hope God will bless my mommi and may her dun feel so pain.
cause I heard the aunty tell her son is bit pain.
I know those adult like to say something that still bit different with the truth.
and I know she might be quite pain!! hell.

and I duno why mommi take so long for it.
and sister was asking to phone her when mommi get in.
I just phone her asap when I realize might be momma's turn
but she didn't pick up my call. what she always do.

she phoned me few minutes later and she said she will coming soon.
and we waiting there, and I have been sitting for few hours til oedema happen on my legs.
mayb cause by scare too.
so I just can sit "impolitely".. image loss. :C

and finally I duno hw long the time taken,
mommi came out! and sure the gauze cotton wrapping her eye.
it's scary.
and the scariest is mommi told me that she is awake while doing the surgery and know everything what the doctor doing.
and her description is damn poor. cause she make it scary and scarier. >.<
momma, eu are brave.  u know? :')

and my sister always making nonsense and sure she did there too.
almost spoil ppl curtain and luckily not.
ans so and so.......

I just hope everything is ok to momma...

and I was no mood to write this, maybe fear still there.
even my result too. I was though result will release  yesterday,  but it's cant make me to concern it.
and yup, today it release, although all pass, but damn low cgpa.
seriously, quite disappointed on myself.
nvm, should try harder next sem. :)

and, I've change. something change. much more feeling? I duno what
will be found out one day.
but, I dun like it.
it's make ppl hurts.

class is starting soon, and I wasted my break this time.
totally doing nothing. what the fart am I..

and, should be end up now. everything..

思绪。

最近 过得充实吗..?

老实说，我过得并不。

而且 还蛮颓废的。

这并不是我想要的啦

只是宠宠自己吧

或是自己超懒惰的

还是潜意识里想逃避什么的吧…

总之 过得挺颓废的 =S

说实在 我也不喜欢这样的自己…

其实 原本真的想要逼着自己每天做些运动还是什么的

但 情况没有比过去好多少

而我 只是和自己的脾气过不去。想到都觉得可笑

平时 通常都可以一笑了之

偏偏某些时候 就是做不到

为什么呢?

是在乎? 不喜欢? 还是什么呢?

或许 是幼稚吧…

说到 不喜欢，

其实我不喜欢的 还蛮多的

其中 那些偷偷的“监视” “观察” 的那种，更是不喜欢

你想知道什么 直接了当的问个清楚不是更好吗??

以自己一方所得到的就是结果 那对当事人不是很不公平吗? 尤其是在作出错误的判断后。

而身边的关心 和 插手 还是 鸡婆的

我都知道

真心 还是 假意， 起码 我还分的出来

难道 我真的那么的好骗吗??

那 您们的演技 还得再进步些…

要演 就演得逼真些吧…

人生 就是要布满这些“调味料”吗?

那 这道菜，还可真难啃。

难过的 是内心…

谁有能那么容易的放下呢?

就算是世外高人 也得用上一些时间吧…

还有 那些老是不懂硬装懂的 也是超讨厌的啦 >.<

尤其是在 事情发生后再说“我就知道…” “我就说了…”

你他妈的，那事情之前你有不说?!

人，怎么就那么的奇怪…

讨人厌的奇怪。

当然，我自己也好不到哪去

脾气不好 功课不好

而最近 那种逃避的心情 好像又出现在心里了

显然的 并不是什么好事。

伤害他人还是自己难受 都好难选。

自私与否，还是因人而异啊

不论 学业 工作 爱情 家庭 朋友 还是什么的

你会选择自私 还是 怎么的?

倒是有位认识不久的朋友让我看见了无私的心态

不求回报的帮助他人, 不嫌麻烦, 热心的态度

现在还可是少见。

虽然不懂他是真是假，起码他可以感动他人

但若他是假意的

那 我可以说 他的演技还真的不错的嘛

要演 就应该向他这样吧。哈哈 =D

但 试问谁人可以那么不怕累的在自己的生活里扮演他人呢？

我可是非常的佩服那人咯~ =)

这各式各样的人们

是生活中的色彩吗?

或许 我还不懂得去欣赏吧。

其实 自身享受生活 不就好了吗..?

何必杞人忧天呢? =)

嗯，就是这样啦~ :D

所以，

爱自己的生活就好啦~ ;D

半个假期。

过了半个“假期”， Oww~这那算是什么假期嘛 >.<

才那短短的两个星期... =C

一星期过去了

还几天又要回去金宝 =C

说实在 已经麻木了这种习惯

很多很多的安排 然后跟着去执行而已

也对啦 现在除了读书 再不然就是工作

而我是属于前者罢了

人生嘛~ 除非你非常的不一样

不然每个人还不都一样 —— 几乎每天都在做些重复有重复的事与物

而我现在 每天就是吃喝拉撒睡，

不对 我有些便便问题 并不是每天都拉~

但 每天也好吃好睡的

应该长胖蛮多吧 =C

唉~~~~

原本还以为自己能每早去跑步的

然后 每天都过得充实非常之类的

但 现在 都给睡眠和戏剧给“充实”了 ~>.<~

不过!!! 我是在看 <The Vampire Dairies - season 3>, 哈哈!!
就 不和自己计较咯~ XD

而过两天 我妈迷就要去做眼部镭射

说是小手术啦

但严格说起来 我们都应该要担心的

而 大家都是吧…

原本是没什么大惊小怪的

但风险或多或少都是存在的

谢谢你点醒我啦，张绍淇。=)

所以我把明天的节目统统都取消了

被我放鸽子的，抱歉 >.<

以后总有时间的嘛~

妈迷重要点 =)

再加上星期三很有能出成绩

唉~~~>.<~~~

希望可以顺顺利利的通通及格咯 (·_·)

老天保佑咯~>.<~

早晨·思维 c:

阴天，是现况。

一早醒来 是那阴阴微冷的天气
不怎么的想起床
从回来到现在 今天是最早起的吖~
9点 就起床了
自身都感到不可思议的说 =目

不自觉的 一幕幕的回忆涌现于脑海里
那过去 还可真佩服自己的大胆吖~
可也不喜欢那比现在还差的我。=)

也不知怎么的 会突然的想起。
—— 奇怪!! ——

不过也好 回忆下过往的自己。
最重要的是 坦诚的面对自己。
对吧? =D

是啊，坦诚面对所有 有多少人能够做到呢..?
我承认 我做不来…… :')
呵呵，自己 也太弱了吧。

就拿感情来说好了
严格的说 我真的不会处理
所以 有时候还是觉得不要去想的好..

有人说： 有也烦 没有也烦
也倒也是，本身还蛮认同的。
但 后面那句就还好 不完全的赞同
没有 也不会烦吧
挺多不就是羡慕他人嘛 ~ :D
不过还好啦 没什么特别的羡慕啦 =P

唉~那过去还真不堪入目啊~>.<~

不过 都过去了，算了吧。
每个人都会上过各式各样的课
人生的故事 自己写出自己的精彩罢了。

而我的下半部呢 就敬请期待吧~ haha~
谁知道自己未来会怎样呢~ :D

总之呢 做好自己不就好了。 =)

Mother's day. C=

Do you know what time I woke today? =)
I think u won't guess the right time..

9am I get a call from Ammo, but totally duno what he talking with me

after I read his text, only know that he is asking me to breakfast with big Sam.

after I reply I continue my sleeping >.<

btw, I forgot what I had reply him jor =目

and I sleep, and sleep, and sleep...

I heard my mom calling me,

then my nephew,

then my dad...

and my dog too. I think.

but I still continue sleep..

....till the noon..around 4pm. =目

 

haha. I also duno why I sleep so much. =P

and then I am not wasting time today

after I wake, have my "brunch"

clean my room.

pack my stuff.

then accompany mommi go photoshoot.

and then,

we go lake garden :D

actually I wanna go station one for our dinner today.

but mommi said wan eat bak kut teh~ =.=

then okay la. do what she like :D

and we watching movie together. sit together. watch together.

we just stay together. :)

I know it's not a nice mother's day.

but we just wan mommi be happy.

and, I wan to wish my mommi:

stay happy.

meet lucky.

live healthy.

and no worry. =D

mommi, we love eu. ^3^

you're our super mommiii~~~

the best momma in our life.

the lake garden, long time I've not been here.

new thing there!! I wan kayak!!

I saw a lots of people in lake garden today, families. :)

today lake garden full of loves. =D

I like that. C:

one more to go.

after the morning test, Principles of Microeconomics.
It's totally a easy paper, but too bad, I duno.. :C

pray hard, God, let me pass please, just wanna pass only.. =c

one more subject to go
tomorrow, Principles of Marketing.
hopefully can shun shun li li la.

I'm poor in memorizing, and ad til the max d.
how do those people keep memorizing and feel that totally an easy job ya.?
I want to be like that too .. :C

yesterday totally feel upset! it's hard for to continue memorize d.
mentally and physiology til the max d. the feeling, not good.
make me feel like 崩溃. :'C
need a hug, but just can hug myself.
need a talk, but dunwan kacau ppl.
need to cry, but it can't solve any problem.


I just need a comfort at all.

at last, I hug my pillow tightly and comfort myself. :'C
sound stupid. >.<

I wanna find someone to accompany me that time, but til the last, I didn't.
few people in mind, but I duno why I wan to do this. :C
anyway, just passed it, and I can handle myself geh~ =)
~SMILE~

start from next sem, I need to be more hardworking!!
but how if I failed one subject in this sem? It might drive me fall apart! T.T
so, dun please. God, do u heard me :'(

so, what I have to do now is, start memorizing my marketing!!!
oww~ sound bad :(
clean my brain, and install all those theory into my tiny memory storage.

+U+U!!

almost all the friends already having their sem break d,
everyone is playing, relaxing. but I still studying T.T. No, is memorizing.. T.T

those who are having break, enjoy your break and stay fun.
and all the best, to me. =)

TSY, be strong!!! C=

decadence day :C

waste whole day.. :C
I wasn't want like this...

I planned wake up around 9am in the morning, but I failed.
noon only I wake. :c
I planned to study 2 chapter of Microeconomics today, I failed too.
waste the time on the internet. I also duno what I'm doing.. T.T
I planned to sleep earlier tonight, I failed again!!
what the fart am I doing today?

I DISLIKE these kind of mine. the lazy me.

I wish I could be stronger, and smarter.
but, failed cause of my laziness.. :c
may someone guide me please..  (◦'﹏'◦)


the weather is sooo0oo hot in Kampar recently.
Hate it. >.<
I need a air-con!
next sem, I should ask papba and mommi for a Air-Con!!
seriously x boleh tahan nia =.='''


I hope I can be more hardworking, then I won't feel so hard when final coming :c


I need to change. bless me please :)


I wanna to be healthier,
I wanna to be fit,
I wanna to be slimmer,
I wanna loss weight,
I wanna to be fairer,
I wanna to be taller,
I wanna to be prettier!! <-- that's the point. XD


haha, anyway, I just wanna be healthier la.
so, I plan to have some exercise start from nxt sem.
ermm, but I seem think of this last sem too =P
hope I'll take action of it la =D


to bring your day up, you should do something, not waiting. C:
yea, do u agree? :)


have a good day, world.
time for me to sleep. =P night.

Final, on the way...

passed 3 paper, 2 left..
just done the 3rd paper, Management Principle few hours ago.
I thought I know almost all the questions, but I did stupid again =.=


Haiz~~

feel that I'm stupid at all T.T

it's already passed. So, leave it la.
should be focus on the rest papers,
Microeconomics and Marketing..
Gosh, memorizing again >.<
I've to demonstrate that I AM NOT A HARD DISC! >.<

I dunwan to keep memorizing anymore!
It's hard and suffering...=C
cause I poor in memorizing..

but the subjects I took, most of them are memorizing..>.<

what the fart..

God, I am not greedy,
just wanna "shun shun li li" pass all the subjects..
may I..? (◦'__'◦)


Microeconomics is having a low coursework marks, damn.
I duno is the lead lecturer fault or really that I got wrong in the midterm. >.<
haiz, blessing needed..
Marketing should get better result.
to get higher CGPA. and the only way to do so. >.<


haiz~~


have to rest while and continue my nastic memorizing. >.<


all the best to you, people. :)
have a nice day.


* should try my best to get what the result that I want. at least I try. * :)