At the end, the trusting between us is just like GONE. Or it never exist..?
Perhaps there is something still be worth reason for me to stay with her.
I do loves her. And sure now also. But I don't like this love thing is hurting me myself..
Just makes me feel like even a simple love towards a person u have to love is just like a burden, and when it hurts, IT'S REALLY HURTS
And I hate that.
I hates that u just pretend easy, to make me talks to u everything.
I hates that u just pretend u are so that trust on me, but actually u just always don't. Or never....
I hates that u just like to looks around, seek around to get any bad things bad news about me, and tell me that "others" told u, "people" told u, "friends" told u....common, I know most of all is u seek it out..and u never look for my good sides.
And I hates that u always wan me to tell u everything but u are not going to tell everything of u.. For me, I doesn't think it is a FAIR thing.. I was regret to talk to u about this and end up u just continue to creating more lies and lies
U ask me dun be a liar, at least should be a honest people. But how about u?????????
I hate that u always grab out the feeling of me towards u, and end up keep hurting me. How bad are u...
I hate a lot of things that u do on me, did on me, done on me!!!! How cruel are u..
But I never hate u...
And I just always created excuse for everything u done, like u just too care of me, u just love me so that's why......... But not for now anymore, I know I can't hide it anymore, I still have to face the fact...
U just x going to trust me on the beginning....
What a word. "TRUST".
And it just never happen on me, by u..from u..
I hates u always like to "act" pity in front of me..or maybe not..
But I just hate that..
Just please, dun fool me anymore. I don't know how long how much instill can stand for, but I'm very very very very very......terrible tired and hurts now..
I knows a lot of things that u think I could never know. Stop pretending and acting in front of me k..?
Why just u talk nicely, probably with me..?
One more thing, can u just stop yr way of talking that always implied negative thinking toward people/thing to me.. I EXTREMELY HATE IT!!!!!!! And u know what, these make me ignore and almost hate a people for 10years and above!!! How mean u are.....
I just curious what am I inside yr deep part of heart..???
Important ? Or just mean nothing..?
Whatever u done on me, and today finally I willing to facing it.
U just never trust on me. And I just need to do whatever u want me to.
It's just hurts enough for the 1st one, continue with all of yr rules, yr steps..
Just me myself was be an idiot thought that things will be change, it will be change one day...
And I will stop my dreaming thinking from now on...I was clearly know that u just stay with me without trust, never and even.. I make myself very very clear now.. And..it's really hurts.......
You don't lost me, just I lost u forever...
