Really Suck!!!!

(i'm venting, dun read if dun like, thx)

sometime,
not u say forgive mean forgive,
not u said let it away mean away,
not u tolerance den everything will b ok!!!
not u think for ppl, that ppl ll thank n b good to u!!!

really beh tahan right now!!!

i keep quite when u critic me,
i act duno at all
i not disturb u when u moody,
i juz try to let u hv yr own space
i din said anything when u really step on my maximum tolerance,
i juz breath, a deep breath to let all things away frm me,
to hold on our good relation..
to let us stay nice not in argue

but,

now!!!

i cant stand anymore!!!

really Fuck!!!
really Suck!!!
really LPPL!!!
really HATE!!!

i no worry to let u see this
i know wat u always do!
i know u juz will know act!!!!

Deng!!!
post at fb "Ma Chao*"
ya!
is talking u!!!

so what!!??!!

i hate ppl keep act this and that
show that u are the best
show that u are the cleverest
show that u know everything!!!

i din said anything when u act
i din broke yr lie, yr acting at all!!!!

and,

dun worry,

i am not going to tell ppl wat and who u r....

juz continue yr acting, yr lie,

i wont stop u!!

Ms.Suck!!!
oh no,
is Ms.ACTRESS!!!!!

deng~

arhhh~

English presentation at 10am
Maths mid-term test at 6.30pm
Marketing presentation on Friday
Damn~~><~~

really suck la~

all come together..
HATE!

the marketing presentation cause me cant back on Thursday !><!
DEng~

this year cant 扫墓 together with family d~><~
~so sad~

go sleep right now><
tomorrow gonna do all the suck things~><~

night babe~=.=

——standby to Cry——

maths mid-term on Tuesday~!!

and i still FB-ing, pps, blogging~><~

kanasai~

really damn...

WTF am i ..?

i really damn lazy lar..

actly in my mind,

i wanna to give up all of these...

i really dunwan to think this

but i no choice...

u know the feeling of 挣扎...?

now i feel it, 

i hate it, 

i dislike it!!!

why is me..?

2mr hv many many may things to do..

sure very busy..
hv i study my maths..?

damn Fcuk~!

i am complaint myself,

not scolding anyone here,

dun misunderstand~

i really hate myself...

i hate, i really hate...

Maths,

shall i give up you...?

——Bad——

people say:
" GaGa Bad, a Bad Bad Bad Bad GaGa..."

den me..?
Gaga like that mean so Bad d..

den i sure Bad Bad Bad Bad Bad Bad Bad Bad Bad Bad... ...ahCo
(Bad x100, i think..)

i'm not a good girl..

at least, on feeling to love
deep..? ya, mayb u dun und wat i'm talking abt,
i know it, is enough...

i'm ok..
i juz revive wat i did last time..

a guy,
i duno is it i hurt him..
i still remember the night,
i not dare to reply him..
i duno wat he think,
so fast that he tel me wat his mind,
ya, i admit that i also bit admire him,
cause abt his serious
but, he look cool..
joke with him, just awhile, turn back serious face...
see, hw serous he is..
but, i still not dislike abt it.

i still remember that,
that night he will wait for my reply...
but i din reply..

not dunwan, is not dare

i duno he is serious at that time not..?
i really duno..
when met him at the nxt day,
he look nothing~!
den, all right..
i act nothing together to...
i remember that time..
heart is pain...

til the last,
i'm waiting him to me wat is in his mind agian,
but,
he didn't...

at the last,
i still waiting..
but, with the uncertain hope...

nxt,
a guy that quite conversable
a nice guy
a thoughtful guy...
he din tel his mind before
fren keep tel me,
"ya, he is"
...ya, although he is, he not telling me anything, wat can i do..?...
til the last,
i juz get from fren said that, he is hurt when saw or bang...
wat can i do at that time..?

i still remember wat v done together,
whr we go together,
wat u talk abt as joke, as future, as education,... ...
wat u hv done for me
and others..
i know, i remember...
mayb u might forgot,
but, still in my mind...
u got hurt, and me too..

actly, i wished and hoped that,
he will tel me wat he think one day,
but, he didn't...

the other,
a guy really done many many many much much things for me
a terrible, horrible, good guy.
too good..
scary's good~
too much if wanna talk abt him
just can said that
he is eudemonic,
God said, if anyone hv feel all the feeling in this world,
he is eudemonic,
mayb, he is..
i hurt him much, much, and much..
and he get happiness to, between friends and family..
love.? hope he will get in one day~ bless u~ C=
all the best to you~!

i think,
not only them,
still hv others too..
the past..

i'm sorry,
i duno hw to say sorry to u all..
and,
mayb,
i duno hw to love..

people said,
if u really love each other,
when break,
both of u sure cant b friend again..

but,
i still friend with the past(s)..
some of them quite friend too..

is it mean i din love them before..?
no,
i think no,
i love,
but is in another type of love...
mayb ba..

but the above,
i know wat type of love in my heart...

can i say,
i'm a girl,
i need u to initiative than me
i'm not believe in love that easily than other,
i need u to strongly tel me wat u mean and feel, mean yr truthfully...
i'm evader, evader in love
i need u yo hv patient when u chosen me

to give me warm,
to give me sureness,
to give me yr wholehearted...

can i say these..?

i know til the last i had choose a "bad" guy,
i know who is he,
i know what am i doing,

 i know wat u all think the 1st when know this,
but i pretended i duno
i know u all sure think that i'm be fooled and lost smthg when with him..
but i did't..

ya,
i didn't..

sure confuse and unbelievable right..? =)

that's why we broke...
such a good ending right..? C=

btw, u know why will i choose him..?
ya, a ppl tel me before, that i escape everything..
yes, i am..
i admit..til all is happen den just i admit..
that ppl said also actly i cant do like that,
everyone will be hurt,
include me..

i dun mind i got hurt,
i mind ppl who i care get hurt..

come back,
he is not my beloved,
he is not the prefect,

i choose because of,
他是拿得起，放得下

i not going love him that time,
i know what we are, what we want,
the important thing is,
i won't hurt him,
i know this...
i thought these is enough for everything,
i dun mention that this just enough for me to escape!

u know y i choose him..?
because he just broke with his gf,
and he need a comfort
i know this,
and i juz need a way to escape..
throw out, throw away everything...

i dunwan think, dunwan decide, dunwan resolve
i feel very messy of all of that...

i'm so sorry for my immature
i'm so sorry for my capricious
i'm so sorry for my ignorant and foolish
i'm so sorry for hurting u guy..

every time,
i hope that time can b reverse,
but, i know cant..

so,

i just can act these all din happened before..
(escape agian..=.=）

erm..or i choose to keep in the deepest of my heart..

i'm so sorry..

dun worry,
i'm ok...

everything will b well..

"all is well..."

i will be myself right now

告别过往的颓废

aunty ahCo..?

yorrrr~
sometime hor~
i really feel that i'm a aunty style lar~

or,

i ad is..????

oo00ooooOOoh NNN00ooooo~~!!

i dunwan lar~
and i ad wanna 20 d....
i dunwan i dunwan~><~

and hor,
i always keep thinking abt those aunty thgs leh..
such like,
much b precious,
save this save that,
go buy thg also b a bargainer d..><

and many other la...

am i really macam a aunty..?

 i really dunwan la....

i dunwan going 20 years old too~><

i wan 年年十八岁~!!!

hv a song gonna sing now...
"我不想 我不想 不想长大... ..."

S.H.E -不想长大  C=

dun b sweat k..? ^.^

i think u also think that dunwan grow up, no, is grow oo00OOld, so fast right..?

haiz....
damn sad la...

i dunwan ppl cal me Aunty lar...T.T
(i'm Connie...sound like "Call ni" right..? xD, so dun cal me "aunty" )

"我不想 我不想 不想长大.... ..." (singing...=P)

yaya~meaningful~~

T.T..ya lu ya lu...

——熄灯·一小时——

Earth Hour today!
are u goin to join today..? C=

let's join together la~!

to save our earth,
although it's seem like nothing too
to help our earth,
mayb it cant work to it too

but, at least,
we try to save and protect our earth~

mayb 2mr is the end of world
we should precious wat we hv right now~

try to protect and save our earth til the end...
...of our life...

Mother Earth!!!
rest for 1 hour today~!!! ^.^

and we enjoy the 1 hour's romance environment with whole world today~

——precious what u having right now——
熄灯·一小时行动 即将开始!!!
～锵锵锵锵～ ^^
support 十扑~

My Babe——W910i——

ya~
My baby SE W910i  now really wanna say Goodbye to me d~T.T~
cause this time i'm not going take it to repair d...

u accompany me 2years++ d..
mayb it's time for u retire d...

today,
yr screen sometime also cant see anything d...
ribbon problem again,
3 time i repair for u cause of this reason d..

so,

this time i'm not going to repair d..

although u r not that best phone to use..
type chinese also damn lag...
still 舍不得 mia~
got 感情 d ma~T.T~
(i'm not that 冷血无情 k..?)

and,

my babe also not bad lar~
although it juz 2.0MP,
it can take nice pic!!!
n it better den 3.2MP camera phone~ ^u^

so nice leh~

but now it R.I.P liao~T.T~
actly,i damn sad ar...
damn down too...

really sad lar~
yesterday broke ahBao, the mirror
today Babe, my lovely phone~

but, Babe more 不舍得 lor~

sad ar~T.T~

btw, wat phone should i buy now..?

Babe~!

us!! take by babe~

every time the great moment, babe snap for us!

take by babe~T,T~

by Babe too~

by baby, when rawang-ing~

ahCo & Hong, by Babe, the lastest~

—感情专一?—

ah7 在面子书找了篇文章
一看了第一句，
就叫我看了.

感情专一人的特征：
“自己走路时会很快... ...”
=.=

arllar~
apalar u~

我走路真的有那么快吗... =.=?

不过
当把整篇都给读完
发现还蛮多特征是我有的

天~
这是说明,
我对感情专一吗..? x))))

是吗..?
..
...
.
...
..
.
...我不清楚...

以前的我,
肯定会笑爆  当看到这文章，
现在...

或许，
是大家都在长大吧...

我似乎发现，
我，会去承认这事...

该恭喜我吧..? ^v^

...其实..


我也不懂这是  好，还是 坏... ...？

呵呵，
或许我真的该往好的方面想吧~

Hey~!
那 大家都恭喜我吧~

虽然  我还暂时的对这件事不是很能消化~ C=


（让我睡一会，醒来时，或许会完全接受吧~）


晚安噜~ ^.^

——yaya, i should trust on myself what's in my heart——

~My Mirror~T.T

doing assignment til the half... ...
suddenly,
"BanGGG!!!"

what's going on...?

Ouw~mirror drop down,
the big mirror in my room,
actly is normal case...

go and wanna pick it up...

0ooooOOoo0oohHH NOooo0000ooO~!!!!~><~!!!

... ...
.
..
...
..
.
...broke d...

WTF!!!

why..??

why u broke and leave me so sudden..?
and waste it around RM70...T.T

~so sad~

but...
it broke so sudden,
is it mean that anything gonna happen..?

damn scare~
cause last time stay at penang got experience d...

just throw my ahBao(mirror ^.^''' ), outside my hostel...
hope that don't happen anything that is unhappy la..

~po pi po pi~ -.-

UTAR's bus

my class hving in 1pm today,
no transport today,so i going to take bus to campus~

i keep wishing n hoping that today i can take a bus to campus,
cause every Thursday, i cant get a bus when last time until now too...
so scared~ ><

ok, fine~
just walk out from the street then i saw few girls waiting thr d,
os: wow~today i might get the bus on time... C=

so, i keep waiting with the girls for around 20min,
it gonna 1pm!!! wtfish...
nvm, i back hm,
to look forward that who else can fetch me go campus not,
but today no car....T.T

nvm,
ah 7 tel me that 1.10pm like that hv a bus..
so00ooo, i back to the bus stop again~><~

wait, and wait, and wait~
i duno hw long i had wait...
finally!!!! a bus come!!!!!
oh no~full of ppl~
cant get up~><~!!!!

ok, den i still keep waiting for it......
hw stupid am i.....haiz~

waiting...
...
waiting...
...
and waiting...
...
it was almost 2 o'clock d!!!!!!
00ooo0oMGGG~>m<~!!!

if my class is only 1 hour, i sure skip,
but it's 2hours and i straight til 5pm~
hw i skip today~~~~~~

luckily,
ah7 still not yet go scl~
den i tumpang car with her to campus~

hate UTAR's bus 99 !!!>n<!!!

i promise that i won't take UTAR's bus anymore!!
unless, it's absolutely necessary ~>n<!!!!  (^.^''')

~~hou guai heng ar~~

i hate u!!
UTAR's stupiak bus!!!!!
!!!!~>n<~!!!!

“Bye”

mummy still the same everyday will give me a cal
just sometime she forgot.

how long time is this that she give me a cal every night..?
i also forgot d..
since i stay in penang...

i hate to say "BYE" this word between mummy and my conversation
it seem like going to end
i hate this

sometime, please dun blame me if i din say bye to you guy ya~ =P

tonight, mummy tel me,
just try yr best, still hv 1 month++ only...

i duno y every time i heard this,
i feel gonna cry out d...

but i cant let my tear drop out that easily

i dunwan say "BYE" to everyone
i am greedy,
i wan you all stay beside me,
til the end of the world....

when mummy said "Bye"
i juz will answer her "emm..."
how sad that feeling are...
i duno hw to decribe
especially when heart is gonna cry that time... ...

although u sometime really 长气,
keep telling me this and that,
i know that u just care abt me...
although u sometime really 孩子气,
keep doing this and that let us worry and dislike
i know that we should spend time with you as possible that we can
... ...
i know, i know wat you think and wants
i will try my best to give u wat u wants...
just try my best...

i know i am the youngest
forever wil be the youngest in the house
u will keep worrying and worrying... ...

actly,
we are grow up,
we know hw to thinks at the most time...
and we won't say "Bye" to you..
at least me, i can promise this
i sure wouldn't  say "Bye" to you, and you all too...

dun worry so much, on us, on many things...
dun think so much
it's your time to enjoy now

ya,
you are my mummy,
my lovely mummy,
forever you are~
keep out the "Bye" word, between you and me
especially me to you...

can i stay beside you forever...?

Semester 3 in Foudation

Damn tired sem~><~
keep doing assignment, and presentatiom
and mid-term too!!

all come together~
is it a correct way that i study in UTAR..?
i think before that i quit UTAR,
then continue the cabin crew courses,
or,
come out learn some 手艺

i really feel uncomfortable in this sem....
not stress...
just... ...
...dislike ba..

or mayb,
i'm not that like study ba...

i hope i hv a super brain like a computer,
what things also can remember..
i hope i'm a dictionary,
can know everything in this world...

how wonderful is it, if i'm really in these~

but,
it's impossible...

i dunwan my mummy disappointed on me
i dunwan you might b hard in the future, if this is possible
i dunwan my family all feel like lose something aft i quit...

i really duno what to do
i really hate this feeling
i hate i'm poor in everything
coz that i cant do everything that i wish n hope...

if,
if i'm not the youngest,
if i'm not get the better result in SPM
if i'm a stupid person

i think i might enjoying the life right now,
傻人有傻福嘛~

mayb,
i might complaint that how come i'm so stupid,
but, at least i might happier than now...

i duno who can i talk to,
and how i gonna tell it...

not that i wanna complaint my life,
is i duno how to handle it,
i know i'm luckily than many ppl in this world,
i hv health,
i hv my lovely family
i hv friends, although is not that much
i hv chance done many things
i hv a lots, a lots... ...

mayb,
human being is greedy,

i just hope everything can b well... ...

i'm not dislike study,
i just duno what i want, until now...

很可悲吧我...
长得那么大了，
还什么都不懂...
我自己也替自己感到悲哀... ...

if everything can do without thinking any problem
how nice is it...

but, CAN'T

i hate assignment, that keep coming assignment
i hate having test, the test i always can't handle
i hate... ...
..
...
..
ooOOOoo~
actly,
is i hate myself....
the person who are noob and stupid and useless...

i hate UTAR too....
wat a fucking Uni is this...

—20th March—

going sing K with buddies~!!!
yeah!!no time din go liao~
but so sad that i hv a sore throat~!!! >.<~
So sad!!!

but i still going~
wakaka~ x))

today fetch by hoehin,
mayb he 1 year never drive d..
really... ... damn slow~=.=
but Very save lar~ ^.^

aft fetch Zhonglin, the fellow said wanna go watch movie wor..
den go sentral lor..
mana tau let us bang with artist!!!
S'pore and Msia 's artists~
i am not sure their name~^.^'''

and we plan wanna go take their signature and pic with them mia~
we keep queue and queue and queue.....
and suddenly!!!!
Jong phone us!!!
00oOOMG!!!!!
i forgot tel her we going sentral 1st!!!!!
she ad reach Rex Box d....T.T
so sorry ya, ah Jong..T.T

but den we still continue queue and, x)
we  feel that we look like keep staying at the same place only...
and we din move b4!!!
whr can like that..ppl also take n come down d lor....
isn't we duno hw to fight wif other...?
mayb we too kind d lar~ ^.^ ~
(u all sure argee mia~)

we wanna faster,
coz Jong waiting us..
but, we tot wanna reach our turn d,(exciting....)
the buffalo ppl tel us.. ... ...
N0 More poster liao!!!!!!!! >.<~!!!!!!!
whr can like that!!!!!!

so sad lar......T.T
wasted us almost 2 hours thr n Jong wait for us for almost 1 hour
 n we get nthg.......T.T
很伤心啊... ....=(

then we rush go find ah Jong lo....
luckily she very kind,
not angry wif us~^.^ (love u ya~ ^3^)

K time~!!!!!
let's shout~!!!

when Zhonglin get the mic,
the 1st sentence he said: ... ...
. . .
. . .
. . .
我很伤心啊.. ...
and look at me. ..
. . .
.
and all laugh at me...
paisei nia...~><~

i need create a copyright d~
keep tel me this sentence that whole day..
hnng!!

0h ya~
so ngam that,
We 4 attired in a very match color,
except ah Jong~
2 blue, 2 black~
hahaha~

ah Jong keep said she is the special one in this "team"
really SS lar her~
but i like her so much~
hehe~ =P

anyway,
spent a nice weekend wif buddies~
love u all~❤

blue and black in the day~
❤ 默契默契~

❤love this feel~

Jimmy and Jong

Jong, Hoehin

Zhonglin, Jong

Jong, ahCo

go out with Jong sure have photo mia~

—Starbuck with U—

spent 2 days in Starbuck~
cause abt my assignment, and hang out too lar~ ^.^
with the 3 fellows
Jimmy, come back from penang, now sem break-ing
Zhong lin, back from S'pore, wow~damn syok~
Me, ahCǒ, back from......... kampar....boring place ><!!!


and,


Hoehin, the Japanese guy!! back form Japan to 逃难!!! haha x))


so surprise that he said come back d~
and so nice that can hang out with him,
we not met each other for 1 year ++ d ar~~~~


i still remember that, that time he wanna flight to Japan d and gv me a cal,
but i working that time, phone not beside me..T.T
and then he cal my house phone,
my mummy duno who is he and he is rushing to flight d,
so ngam that day is 1st of April!!!!! ><
i told my mummy dun simply believe wat ppl say la...today wat day wor......
hahaha~!!!
later den i know is he!!!!! damn him~


i wanna do my assignment,
but,
i get attract by something... ...


Hoehin's phone!!!
with a 12.2MP camera, and !!
it is free~~~!!!!!!!!!!
0MG~


den we keep playing his fon on ss-ing...xD
wakaka~


unbelievable that it's free la....


Zhong lin, until now juz i know,
he is funny n birdds like us..==
mayb worse den us~haha..(juz joke)
but he is going back S'pore d...
s0 sad~


Jimmy, this guy nothing say la...haha
always hang out together mia~
good guy lai eh,
but always like act emo lo....
sien nia~ >w<


0ooppsss~!!!
i forgot my assignment d!!! ><
aiyoyoor~
these guy ar...
coz me done my assignment at the nxt night ~ >.<!!!
(sorry la..is me no concentrate at all alr....^.^''')




thx guys,
let me have friends like u all~
get nice moment with u all...^.^

——你与我——

只是想说,
很多事情  不可能, 就是不可能了
不管你做得再多
说的再多
我的决定还是一样

或许，
我做了什么  还是说了什么
让你误会了
我道歉

但，

你怎样都会知道我 会做个什么的 决定吧...?

你说，
你了我。
你说，
你懂我。
你说，
你知道我...

我的性格，
我的脾气，
我的喜好，
我的憎恶，
我的许多许多... ...

是吗..?

那，
你怎么还那么的傻...?

那，
你怎么还那么的顽固..?

怎么的就是 让大家都担心....?

你不为自己着想，
那 你也该为你家人着想啊~
那 你也该为你身边的朋友着想啊~

大家都很关心你的。

我 不做声 的
让 大伙 认定了
我是 无情
我是 恶人
我是 超级无敌大坏人

我 受了下来...
这一切,
我受了，
我忍了
我也认了...

甚至于
友情，
我亦 放了...

你说，
你是最疼我
最关心我
最想保护我
甚至，
...最 爱我....

我受不了,
我受不了你这种 所谓的  爱
亦 受不起...

你还有更好的选择...
我不是。
明..?

你关心我，
我感谢。
你想保护我,
我感恩。
你要爱我,
等等， 我们只能到朋友的界限...

不是我绝情，
也不是我 无情，
我只是不想把咱们之间 都搞得 乱七八糟 似的 罢了。

这情况，
那感觉，
我试过了，
也受过了...

不好受...

有的时候，
不是伤害你，
不是hurt你，
不是 不要 你，

而只是 要你，
面对现实...
不要 在再的 逃避...

我真的很感谢你，
是真的。
衷心的  感谢你。
没有的 为什么。

咱们 都快二字辈了，
是不是都好好地为自己 打算了呢...?
是不是该放下些幼稚，孩子气 及 冲动呢..?
是不是 思想上 该 成熟 点了呢..?
是不是 该把过去都放下了呢...?

我 心里依然还有你
我 脑里依然还有你
我 眼里 也依然还有你

我依然会关心你
我依然会问候你
我依然会打听你

等等... ...

朋友 是一辈子的，
这你很了吧...?

也告诉你，

我也爱你，
朋友。

——只看你 当不当我是你朋友——

——我的❤ 永远都会有你居住的位置——