her surgery. and after

mommi had her operation yesterday. Laser.
sound normal right?
I feel so at 1st. but it's not.
it's scary, for me maybe.
mommi is brave enough to go through it. :')

I was thought I feel nothing and just a normal small surgery for mommi.
but I'm wrong. I will be scare.
when she change off  her cloths, I still fell nothing.
I still can go lunch with my friend.
i duno why that time I really feel nothing...
maybe there's a time set in my mind, 3pm only will go for the operation.

mommi was 3rd one,
1st person is an uncle, he went in and nothing change to he while he came out.
while, the damn operation still haven start and i just sitting there for nothing and time fly.
until,
the another aunty who are the 2nd patient for the operation,
she came out, and I found that she had done hers!!!
Gosh! then now is momma turn???

my fear almost cover me.
I just stay there and hope God will bless my mommi and may her dun feel so pain.
cause I heard the aunty tell her son is bit pain.
I know those adult like to say something that still bit different with the truth.
and I know she might be quite pain!! hell.

and I duno why mommi take so long for it.
and sister was asking to phone her when mommi get in.
I just phone her asap when I realize might be momma's turn
but she didn't pick up my call. what she always do.

she phoned me few minutes later and she said she will coming soon.
and we waiting there, and I have been sitting for few hours til oedema happen on my legs.
mayb cause by scare too.
so I just can sit "impolitely".. image loss. :C

and finally I duno hw long the time taken,
mommi came out! and sure the gauze cotton wrapping her eye.
it's scary.
and the scariest is mommi told me that she is awake while doing the surgery and know everything what the doctor doing.
and her description is damn poor. cause she make it scary and scarier. >.<
momma, eu are brave.  u know? :')

and my sister always making nonsense and sure she did there too.
almost spoil ppl curtain and luckily not.
ans so and so.......

I just hope everything is ok to momma...

and I was no mood to write this, maybe fear still there.
even my result too. I was though result will release  yesterday,  but it's cant make me to concern it.
and yup, today it release, although all pass, but damn low cgpa.
seriously, quite disappointed on myself.
nvm, should try harder next sem. :)

and, I've change. something change. much more feeling? I duno what
will be found out one day.
but, I dun like it.
it's make ppl hurts.

class is starting soon, and I wasted my break this time.
totally doing nothing. what the fart am I..

and, should be end up now. everything..