——Bad——

people say:
" GaGa Bad, a Bad Bad Bad Bad GaGa..."

den me..?
Gaga like that mean so Bad d..

den i sure Bad Bad Bad Bad Bad Bad Bad Bad Bad Bad... ...ahCo
(Bad x100, i think..)

i'm not a good girl..

at least, on feeling to love
deep..? ya, mayb u dun und wat i'm talking abt,
i know it, is enough...

i'm ok..
i juz revive wat i did last time..

a guy,
i duno is it i hurt him..
i still remember the night,
i not dare to reply him..
i duno wat he think,
so fast that he tel me wat his mind,
ya, i admit that i also bit admire him,
cause abt his serious
but, he look cool..
joke with him, just awhile, turn back serious face...
see, hw serous he is..
but, i still not dislike abt it.

i still remember that,
that night he will wait for my reply...
but i din reply..

not dunwan, is not dare

i duno he is serious at that time not..?
i really duno..
when met him at the nxt day,
he look nothing~!
den, all right..
i act nothing together to...
i remember that time..
heart is pain...

til the last,
i'm waiting him to me wat is in his mind agian,
but,
he didn't...

at the last,
i still waiting..
but, with the uncertain hope...

nxt,
a guy that quite conversable
a nice guy
a thoughtful guy...
he din tel his mind before
fren keep tel me,
"ya, he is"
...ya, although he is, he not telling me anything, wat can i do..?...
til the last,
i juz get from fren said that, he is hurt when saw or bang...
wat can i do at that time..?

i still remember wat v done together,
whr we go together,
wat u talk abt as joke, as future, as education,... ...
wat u hv done for me
and others..
i know, i remember...
mayb u might forgot,
but, still in my mind...
u got hurt, and me too..

actly, i wished and hoped that,
he will tel me wat he think one day,
but, he didn't...

the other,
a guy really done many many many much much things for me
a terrible, horrible, good guy.
too good..
scary's good~
too much if wanna talk abt him
just can said that
he is eudemonic,
God said, if anyone hv feel all the feeling in this world,
he is eudemonic,
mayb, he is..
i hurt him much, much, and much..
and he get happiness to, between friends and family..
love.? hope he will get in one day~ bless u~ C=
all the best to you~!

i think,
not only them,
still hv others too..
the past..

i'm sorry,
i duno hw to say sorry to u all..
and,
mayb,
i duno hw to love..

people said,
if u really love each other,
when break,
both of u sure cant b friend again..

but,
i still friend with the past(s)..
some of them quite friend too..

is it mean i din love them before..?
no,
i think no,
i love,
but is in another type of love...
mayb ba..

but the above,
i know wat type of love in my heart...

can i say,
i'm a girl,
i need u to initiative than me
i'm not believe in love that easily than other,
i need u to strongly tel me wat u mean and feel, mean yr truthfully...
i'm evader, evader in love
i need u yo hv patient when u chosen me

to give me warm,
to give me sureness,
to give me yr wholehearted...

can i say these..?

i know til the last i had choose a "bad" guy,
i know who is he,
i know what am i doing,

 i know wat u all think the 1st when know this,
but i pretended i duno
i know u all sure think that i'm be fooled and lost smthg when with him..
but i did't..

ya,
i didn't..

sure confuse and unbelievable right..? =)

that's why we broke...
such a good ending right..? C=

btw, u know why will i choose him..?
ya, a ppl tel me before, that i escape everything..
yes, i am..
i admit..til all is happen den just i admit..
that ppl said also actly i cant do like that,
everyone will be hurt,
include me..

i dun mind i got hurt,
i mind ppl who i care get hurt..

come back,
he is not my beloved,
he is not the prefect,

i choose because of,
他是拿得起，放得下

i not going love him that time,
i know what we are, what we want,
the important thing is,
i won't hurt him,
i know this...
i thought these is enough for everything,
i dun mention that this just enough for me to escape!

u know y i choose him..?
because he just broke with his gf,
and he need a comfort
i know this,
and i juz need a way to escape..
throw out, throw away everything...

i dunwan think, dunwan decide, dunwan resolve
i feel very messy of all of that...

i'm so sorry for my immature
i'm so sorry for my capricious
i'm so sorry for my ignorant and foolish
i'm so sorry for hurting u guy..

every time,
i hope that time can b reverse,
but, i know cant..

so,

i just can act these all din happened before..
(escape agian..=.=）

erm..or i choose to keep in the deepest of my heart..

i'm so sorry..

dun worry,
i'm ok...

everything will b well..

"all is well..."

i will be myself right now

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